March 10th – Evening

Aora wants me to make Castien relive the time he was kidnapped and held in the Amani Catacombs. I can’t believe she even suggested it! I don’t like the idea but it seems I have no choice. The though of putting my son through that makes me sick to my stomach. Castien is going to have nightmare for days after this. I’m going to have to see if Keyadis will let me stay home the next few days to see how Castien handles this. Also I have to send a letter to Anwar and get him to the Manor. I’m not sure if I should tell him why before or after he’s already here. And I have to talk to Illiannah and then Mirela…I hope with all my heart and soul that Mirela can help us and that we don’t have to put Castien through this.

I don’t know how Anwar and Illiannah are going to react to this situation. I really don’t want to do this but Aora insisted she needed something that may lead her to the kidnapper and that Castien is the only way to get it. She made it sound like if I don’t do this then the man that tortured my son may torture another child or continue to torture my son. She actually said he may continue to feed off him. What does she mean “feed” off him? I’m so torn. What will Castien think of me? Will he hate me for putting him through this? I don’t know if I could handle that. I think I’m going to go watch him sleep for a little while. He looks so much like an Angel when he sleeps.